It's happening again!!! .... I wonder when it will stop.
Again I'm back to feeling down and lost with loads of confusion. Dad think's it's a sign of depression and i need therapy. He thinks i do not know how to be on my own and i always need company around me. He starts asking me to change my friends (make new ones and start hanging out with new ppl), find new ones and start joining charity clubs and social clubs. It's been day 5 feeling like this now but this is not the first time. Mom on the other hand thinks i should just travel for a bit but knows i can't since i just started working in a new company. My next travel will be in October but it won't be the travel where i can relax. I'll be headed to Melbourne with Mom to visit the family for a week. Younes thinks i should find a partner soon else i will go crazy.
I have been thinking about this seriously lately about what everyone told me.. and seriously.. I love the friends that i got today.Why should i want to change? I've found my "click" ... People that i feel comfortable with and am happy with. At the same time, my schedule is already soooo full with my running / Walking, college, capoeira and social life.
What other friends do you need when you have...
The TB gang (Tanjung Bungah) - The penang gang i have working in KL. I can basically share everything with them and whine all i want. They will still take my shit.. :)
International friends that often come to visit.. exp: Kim and Ali :) Kim has visited 5 times now i think
Of course my capoeira family: EBC Familia!
So much laughter and they accept you in whatever culture,race and size you are
There is also always my sisters from high school. Though half of them are married/preggers or attached, they never forget each other and still finds time to meet up..every so often
Not forgetting the busy girls in KL and Dawn! Everyone having their own busy schedule but will have time for girls night in/out sessions!
And of course those close to me that i see all the time.. The frenchies!
Some leave, new ones come in.. but i will always have my team...
This is a picture of some of the frenchies during our random party crashing on halloween
Partying all the time....
And my favourite: house parties.
And my happy 2010 birthday at the island of no man. Only us and the boat!
I should be happy.. Should i? why do i still feel down whenever i go home. I started running and all.. yet i am totally absolutely.... hopeless. I think it will be better soon. I hope!!!!
Perhaps mom is right.. i need a break.
